Devastated….. Absolutely devastated.

Moving my beloved business from my therapy room at home to setting up at the Grange Business Centre was a huge deal for me. It took me completely out of my comfort zone and I had to be a proper grown up and have walls put up to make rooms and even choose paint colour!!! It cost me a lot (an awful lot!) not just in money – although that too, but in tears, panic, lack of self confidence and a great deal of procrastinating but I did it!

My clients came with me – although they didn’t have to come far,  just around the corner! I had made the right decision and my client base continued to grow. I was able to rent the 2^nd therapy room out to new Therapists and Counsellors. I was able to have more Reiki workshops and meditation classes. It was all working very well. I loved my little space, it felt right, it felt mine. Obviously there were a few hiccups but you learn to live with them or change them if necessary! I found it very difficult having to “do” business. I couldn’t become a hard nosed business woman but then the nature of my work would never have allowed that to happen. I was happy.

The last two and a half years have flown by,  my three year lease was coming to an end and I had had an email saying that my lease would be extended…. Then the rug was ripped away from me – so hard that I was actually left speechless and when not in work, curled up in a foetal position wondering what the hell had just happened and how?

The offer of extending the lease was withdrawn.

I’m not going into the details of why -although that will eventually become obvious – and to be honest I am fed up with rehashing it all but I am devastated,  absolutely devastated. I feel such sadness and betrayal. My beloved clinic, the therapists renting the room and all their leaflets, business cards with the clinic address on.

And of course, my clients, the money that I am still paying off to set up the clinic, my leaflets, business cards, website, banners, signs all now completely useless. I am not angry, I am not a naturally angry person (There are plenty of people who are angry on my behalf) and whilst I had a surge of anger, that was taken over by the utter sadness I felt and complete betrayal. I would never ever have made the same decision.  It doesn’t mean that I am right, it just means that my priorities are very different.

Anyway! Enough whinging, what is done is done!

I still have a few months left in the clinic but am now starting to look for a new and better space. However these things take time and I am not prepared to jump into something that does not feel right. So! In the mean time Just Bea  will be moving back to the therapy room at home.  I will keep all my clients updated on what is happening!

Everything happens for a reason, I am obviously not meant to stay here. I am meant to be somewhere else! The last two and a half years have taught me a lot! I have loved it! It has been an absolute hoot! I really do have the best job in the world. I have the best clients in the world and the most amazing true friends and family who have done nothing but support me.

Just Bea is not about a building, it is about me and my clients. Despite everything and wherever we are it will continue to Just Bea…..

Love always

Elizabeth/Bea/Lizzie

xxxxx